*sigh* this will be short because i am really busy at work. or i should be anyway. i have a bunch of things that need to get done but my motivation and concentration obviously didn’t get the memo about the cancelled vacation and are MIA. since i was sick last week mo-wed i decided (well, pretty much had to…) to come to work this week instead of taking off like i had planned. no big deal really because i was just gonna relax at home but still annoying. plus, i seem to really need some time off as my ability to focus on anything is close to zero. seriously, my mind just wanders off to lalaland all the effing time… i.am.so.urlaubsreif.

i was over @ nina and benny’s last night to go to that church-appointment about the baptism. afterwards we had dinner and i hung out there for a while to chat. i probably got home right around 10:30 pm and i have no idea what happened between yesterday morning and last night but C was cran-ky. i mean really, badly. that doesn’t happen very often as usually i’m the cranky and bitchy one and there really is only room for one of those moods in our apartment. this morning, a liiitle better. until i started talking to him. wowie. got snapped at right away. so we didn’t talk any more until i left for work. i really don’t like when days start off like that :(

especially today. i have soooo much to do that i will probably be here late today. i also have to shop for something to eat for nina and benny’s party tonight and some groceries because tomorrow is god friday = stores will be closed. the party officially starts @ 8 pm. which i (we?) are SO not gonna make because when i get home (eventually) i will have to shower and get ready. and prepare the gift. because for some reason i volunteered to take care of it. of all times, this week…

oh and when i came to work this morning thinking i’d have a sweet parking spot (we have one right in front of the office and thu is my day to have it) , my colleague’s car was parked there because the battery died and he couldn’t move it last night… now i really have to start working without any kind of distraction because that’s the only chance for me to get outta here at a half way reasonable time.

have a great weekend everyone! is it easter yet?

PS: one thing to make the post a little less whiny and cranky. my boss came in this morning and gave each one of us a cute little chocolate easter bunny. that was nice. :)

let’s start with the stress. work has been carayzay for at least four weeks now. you know when you do so many different things at once how you almost don’t remember after a while what exactly you did and how you did it? that would be me these days. luckily i’ve been doing this job for over seven years now so some of the things i can do just automatic without thinking too much about it. but it’s a lot. i hope it’ll get better soon. if not, i should at least get a raise or something. seriously… oh well, i like my job and my colleagues and my office and i DO have a job. so it’s all good. i just thought i’d rant a bit… done now. :)

now the one on talent. i’ve been seriously in LOVE with etsy [and dawanda, which is kinda like the european counterpart] and i could spent $$$ there easily every week. which i don’t, because i’m broke, but i’m just saying i could and would NOT get tired of it. i am blown away by all the talent out there. it makes me wanna buy supplies and try to make stuff myself. which i might even do. one day. what i’m saying is: wow. there’s so much amazing talent out there. and i’m gonna tell you about one particularly talented girl. sandysimone. i ordered a custom necklace for the baptism of my goddaughter with her name and birthstone and it got here yesterday. wow. i’m blown away by how beautiful and special and amazing it is. it’s even more beautiful than i had expected and i cannot wait until i can give it to her. i know, she’s only about 12 months old and won’t know what the heck to do with it yet but to imagine her having this for the rest of her life, reminding her of me, is just… wow. also: i want one for myself now :)

now, the gym. i finally went back yesterday. it felt good. i did 30 minutes on the elliptical in my own pace and then the first week of couch 2 5k with robert ullrey’s podcast. i think i’m too out of shape [and too heavy] to start with the running right away so i did the intervals on the elliptical in different speeds instead of running/walking intervals on the treadmill. and it was great. i still can’t believe how fast those 30 minutes went by and i’m actually looking forward to going again tomorrow night ;) i think i’m gonna do it on the elliptical until i feel confident enough and then switch to the treadmill. and i wanna do it outside at least once a week as well. that will only happen on the weekend until it’s light out longer in the evening but it is my plan. so we’ll see how that goes. i can’t really see myself running anywhere [let alone a 5k] any time soon but it gets my butt of the couch and i will just do it as much as i can… so far, so good :)

okay, here’s the deal: i’m busy. and i have been pretty busy at work pretty much since the middle of april, which is when betti left. that results in a very limited time at work to do private things [= reading and commenting on blogs, replying to emails and such]. i’m also going to the gym twice [i wish] usually once a week after work. i have friends who wanna see me [and who i want to see] and a man at home who i want to see [and i think he doesn't mind seeing me either]. he usually goes to bed between 10 and 11 pm, which is easily one to two hours earlier than i used to go to bed when i still lived alone [and my apartment was clean]. i usually go to bed with him [and read for a while] but that makes my day 1-2 hours shorter than before.

also, i’m old[er] which means i need more quiet time. which results in me relaxing on the couch and going to bed early with C instead of turning on the computer at home to read and comment on blogs and / or reply to your emails. i hate to sound whiny because i certainly am MUCH happier [at work AND at home] than i was a few months ago but i feel bad for not finding the time to comment on all your blogs any more. i usually read your updates in the morning with my first coffee, but there’s just not much time for more. i’m constantly desk-hopping between my and betti’s desk and just have a lot more i need to get done than before. which btw, i really like. i’m much happier now being in charge of more projects but it IS more work… oh and also, i’ve started using the google reader a while back and every once in a while i realize that it doesn’t show all updates. especially the xanga ones. so while it makes my blog-reading-time-management a lot easier, i might also miss an entry here or there.

so what i’m trying to say is: i still pretty much keep up with your entries to stay on top of what’s going on but please bare with me when i don’t manage to comment on your entries that much any more. or reply to your emails in a timely manner [san, thanks so much for the pics. i can't wait to get the book. we need to talk on the phone. you know i just dread typing if i don't have to...]. or forget about birthdays [so sorry, silke! i hope you had a GREAT one!]. please forgive me… :)

tomorrow is german unity day, which means no work. then i’ll be busy on thursday again getting ready for the four-day-weekend. we’re leaving for nuernberg friday morning around 4:30 am *yawn* and should get there at 7:30 am, the wedding is on saturday, recuperating on sunday and on monday we’ll have time to check out the city a little more because our flight back is not until around 8:30 pm. and then it’s less than five weeks until our trip. even though i can’t believe it’s almost november, i’m ready for that vacation! now, back to work…

the weather has been gorgeous for days and it doesn’t look like it’s gonna change any time soon. i am SO lovin’ it. except for the slight problem that comes with the fact that i’ve put on a few pounds since the last summer = small summer-wardrobe and not much to chose from [that fits] :( BUT i’m gonna try and work on that [oh how many times i've said that before...] because i just can’t buy new summer-clothes because i’m too fat for my perfectly fine ones from last year. NO WAY!

and to get going with that “task” of loosing some weight i will enjoy the BBQ after work tonight and some of the cool beer that’s waiting for us downstairs in the fridge… *kidding* well, not really because we will start the grill here in about an hour and BBQ in the backyard of the agency :) C and my brother [he's known my boss for a while now and has been a client before, so...] are coming, too because we’re gonna set up the projector and big screen to watch werder bremen play in the UEFA-cup semi-finals. but i will still try and stick to the not-so-fatty food and only have a couple beers and lots of water.

other than enjoying the weather not that much has been going on. i’m pretty busy at work which will most likely be normal from now on because i got one of betti’s clients when she went on maternity leave and it doesn’t look like he’ll stop giving me something to do [on top of my usual projects that i have anyway] any time soon.

C and i are still doing great with the loving together and everything. of course we have our arguments and had a couple serious talks in the last few weeks but i guess that’s normal in the adjusting to living with another person process. so nothing to be worried about. still madly in love and i can’t believe we’re going onto seven years *gasp* and will actually spend this year’s anniversary together for a change. actually at my friend mimi’s wedding in hamburg = worthy celebration…

tomorrow is the last day at work before a long weekend. on tuesday is may 1st = labour day in germany = a national holiday and to make it a long weekend i took monday off ;) then tomorrow night hemlock and her hubby are coming and stay with us until sunday. it’ll be another one of those from www to real life-meetings and i’m looking forward to it. so far, i’ve met nothing but great people through this blog-thing and i’m sure this one won’t be any different… i plan on buying flowers for the balcony on monday and get that all ready for the summer and then on tuesday C and i will probably go to oldenburg to BBQ and hang out with some friends there. SO, you all have a great weekend as well. i certainly plan on getting a serious tan…