"Thirty Something. Girl. German. In Love. He's American. Stumbling on the way to finding herself. Stuck between Cultures, Languages and Countries. Pretty much just trying to figure out this thing called Life. You can call me Miss Crazy."



dear pharyngitis turned into the flu,

i get it. you win. forget what i said on friday and i’m sorry i didn’t take you serious enough to stay home and with my ass in bed for the weekend. it was great seeing pia, mike and moritz and their amazing, cozy, beautiful new house. unfortunately you decided to come along which kinda ruined my time with them. again, you win. i will now stay home for the next three days, take my antibiotics, drink tea and stay in bed / on the couch. please just give me my voice back because it sucks not being able to breathe OR talk… also, it’d be great if you could keep my snoring to a minimum so poor C won’t have to sleep on the couch in the living room again.

tnx, kim


dear pharyngitis,

i know what you’re trying to do. but i won’t let you. i haven’t seen pia and moritz since early december and mike even longer. i haven’t seen their new house and this trip has been planned for months. so consider your plan as miserably failed. because i’m going. i will give your bacteria everything they hate – which according to my doctor includes gargling with vodka – so you might as well leave now because i’m putting up a fight and i will win. so bite me.

tnx, kim


and then came the cold…

still struggling with the aftermath of the whooping cough – although that is slowly getting better – and now i have a cold. as of last night. a good old cold. my throat hurts like hell, my nose is running, my head is hot, i feel blah! and i’m just sick of being sick. three weeks of feeling bad is a lot for me. i’m usually not sick much and i’m not liking it too much either. we also canceled our trip to berlin all together now. will do it next year. which sucks cause i was really looking forward to it :( but there just isn’t time now before C leaves to go home, so… luckily they extended our voucher for the hotel until the end of march [it was originally ending by dec 31st] so we won’t loose that but still… oh well, now i just wanna go home and get comfy up on the couch.

oh and you know what especially sucks? no kisses for more than three weeks now. i miss C’s kisses… :( speedy actually gets to snuggle up with him more than i do right now.

one of her most favorite places to snuggle up and nap = C's lap :)


i have no idea what i did to make heavens mad like that

two words for the last two days: BULL SHIT! and please let me assure you that the following post is by no means made up or anything. this is EXACTLY what happened to me [us] in the last 14 hours:

the car got towed yesterday. when i got out of work it wasn’t where i had parked it in the morning [and still saw it around lunch]. i took the tram home and then nina drove me to the lot they had brought it to. 149 euro less in my pocket i got home with the car around 8 pm. yesterday sucked. that was a good chunk of what i had saved up for L.A. and i was pissed. but i put it behind me and moved on, being the “all is swell” positive self i usually am…

now fast forward to about a half hour ago: that is when i got an email from LTU informing me that they had canceled our flight to L.A. in november and would refund the money asap. they were sorry and would give each one of us 50 euro off of our next flight we’d book with them. apparently they took L.A. off of their winter-destinations all together. seriously, i am NOT kidding. this is SO nothing to be kidding about, believe me. i have had NO vacation all year and you all know how i was looking forward to that trip so believe you me, i would NOT joke about something like that.

i have no idea what we’re gonna do. i’ve been on the phone with LTU and we will try and get an earlier flight for the same money. i will have to talk to my boss and see if i can take off in october instead of november and first of all, try and get a hold of C who, of course TODAY, left his cellphone at home and is out at some office teaching english instead of in the school where i could reach him…

so yeah, right now i would really REALLY appreciate some good vibes and finger crossing so we will find a solution! thank you.

update about four hours later…

okay, we booked a new flight. phew. i am so relieved we found something. i was SO worried everything would be way more expensive now but luckily, it’s not.

to be honest, this is almost better because we’ll be flying from bremen now. same dates and everything. bremen – amsterdam – los angeles with KLM. and now get this: our new flight is even 18 euro per ticket cheaper than the other deal. so now we don’t have to take the train to duesseldorf after work on thursday, check in, stay at pia & mike’s and fly the next day. instead, we will check everything in in bremen, hang around amsterdam schiphol for a few hours and get on our flight to L.A. and more importantly we don’t have to drag our [i'm sure heavy and huge] luggage back from duesseldorf to bremen on a train when we get back, which is extra nice.

so overall everything worked out okay in the end. granted, i lost some nerves and probably gained a grey hair or two but it turns out the shock was even for the better and i’m sure we will take advantage of those 50 euro compensation from LTU on one of the next flights… man, someone’s REALLY relieved here. can you tell? :)


flickr, what are you doing? :(

i don’t know how many of you have been following the big blow-up on flickr but i most certainly have. because i love my flickr, the community, the “spirit” and even though i haven’t been very active over the last few months [besides posting new baby-pics every other week] i still stop by every day, check on my contacts and just explore… as a matter of fact, i just re-newed my pro-account a few days ago…

and now all of a sudden after more than three years flickr tells me what i’m allowed to see and what not? really? franztoo found the perfect words to outline the whole story and express what he feels and i can only second every word he says. because i am really buys at work [there's a surprise] i would like to just re-direct you to franztoo to find out more… this is just sad and i hope the flickr-staff will find a solution to this problem very, very soon. also, TGIF!